Boluwa The Voice

I didn't know anyone was reading - sorry the second part came so late. If you missed the first part continue here . From where I stopped last week ; After the conversation I was very hurt, heart broken and demoralized. So he wants to have good sex? And we both know it won't be with me. I was hurt, but I know it would hurt more if I  actually have sex with him now because I'm not ready. Well, me I told him my mind is not ready and he promised to wait. He said he thought it was easy - THE CELIBACY THING! I was just mute then he said "if you are not ready, it's fine I u nderstand. " So in my head, I'm thinking this is probably emotional blackmail, and like a gateway for him to cheat on me. But remember how I said I love this person? He makes everything better again by reassuring me, he promised not to cheat and said he already made this commitment and will stick to it. Then he ruined everything by saying he would rather allo...

Memoirs of a 21-year-old virgin went on a break for a while, probably because my lovely writer didn't have anything interesting to write about. Well, that is about to change there might be a little trouble in paradise .  So I have  been dating my present boyfriend for a year and some months. I have said this before and I'll say it again, I'm genuinely  happy with him I  feel inner happiness and I feel sparks fly.  Before we started dating I opened up to him (as I should) and I explained my decision  to keep myself till marriage then he said he's willing to wait.  I'm not going to even pretend like I want to have sex, I'm not ready - physically and mentally. I don't think I am a prude, we cuddle and kiss,  but I have never felt the urge to have sex.   He has seen me naked, it's not even a religious thing, I'm just not ready for sex and now I'm feeling like I should be.   I was playing house at his place, sometime last year...